Sunday, October 24, 2010


There was a great loss in my family this week.  My cousin's six year old daughter was hit by a car and went home to be with our heavenly Daddy.  It is so tragic, so sad. It was hardest to watch my cousin bury her little girl, and imagine myself in her place. 
Only days before this accident, a friend posed a thoughtful question on facebook.  He asked, "What is it that you fear?"  I knew when I read that what my answer was, and I posted in response "Something happening to my kids."  After seeing my cousin experiencing my worst fear, I know, I never want to have to.
Sarah's death was tragic, but it holds so many reminders to me.  I am so thankful that God has used this event in my life to open my eyes and teach me.  It's really nothing new, but today it feels new.
I have never wanted so badly to hold my little girls and never let them go, to squeeze them so hard that they can't wiggle out of my grasp.  Wow, you think God feels like that about us... yeah, me too.
The little things that used to drive me nuts, are nothing now.  It's a blessing and honor to get to follow my toddler around picking up the cheerios she dropped.  Who cares about how many times a little girl changes clothes in one day.  It is a gift to have her laundry to wash, dry, and put away. And this bitty one kicking and spinning around inside of me as I type, she can just keep doing that.  It's the sign of her life to me, and I can't wait to pick up after her one day too.
Another thing I was reminded of is God's love for us, that while we were still sinners, He sent His son Jesus to die for us.  How wonderful... security.  We don't have to overcome anything, He already did.  Jesus said it himself on the cross, "It is finished."  Done, that's all there is to it. We don't have to do anything, but love and serve Him, and accept Jesus as our savior.  God sent a very special message to me on my way home from the funeral.  I was alone in the car, it had been storming all day, I was crying and singing worship songs along with the radio... then I saw it.

The Brazzell family has a fund set up at Arlington Federal Credit Union if you feel so inclined in your heart to give.  How hard to carry around the expenses of your daughter's funeral while you are trying to grieve.  Any gift is greatly appreciated. 
There was an article on Sarah in the Fort Worth Star Telegram if you would like to read it. 

Please continue to pray for this family. 


matt & pj said...

praying for you guys, tiff. and for sarah's mommy and daddy.
love, pj

The Mershawn's said...

I'm so sorry Tiffany. That's so tough. Thankful, though, for the new sight you have & that you shared it with us. It is a privilege to walk the road of motherhood, that is so heavily laden. We fiercely want to protect what we love so dearly. But it's so worth it to hand them over to the Lord, so you aren't burdened & can just love. Praying for all of you.

~SHO~ said...

That was beautiful. Sometimes we forget to enjoy the everyday of it. This served as a reminder to cherish every moment with our little ladies. God is so good and that rainbow was His perfect timing for you. Amazing!
Love you~